hi everyone, jake/cheetahs here again!
i’m so sorry if this is poorly formatted, truly forget how to use blogger at this point.
it’s been a few years so i decided i should make another post. i hope it makes you guys happy! i want everyone to know that i’ll always be here, because sometimes it can be scary wondering where everyone is in life. or, it can be scary to reach out when we give each other our socials. what would we even talk about? it’s totally okay to feel that way, because we will always have this little blog space frozen in time…
and as i said when i promise i’m always here, i can assure you all i’ll be coming back to this space every once in a while. i check probably 1-5 times a year:) i usually read the comments a few months after you’ve left one.
i wanted to say that i’m truly touched by everyone who reached out. honestly, i feel like every single person who commented shocked me a bit. i expected a response but once they start piling in, and the memories come back, it’s like ‘no way!! i never imagined ___ would comment!’
very, very genuinely happy and i thought it was so beautiful to hear from everyone that i did! (oh peppywolf where are you!?)
side note before i forget- i legit have dreams about some of you guys. mainly oak. hehahahh
i was also very pleased to hear how well you all were doing. it seems like you guys are all so bright and talented :”) like some of the fields you guys are going into.. wow!!!! how amazing to see my childhood just completely transform in front of my eyes!
i went to my graduation last thursday, graduating highschool. seeing everyone around me, and hearing the names, i honestly felt nothing. completely numb the entire time. no big life changing realization that i was coming of age. but writing on this blog, maybe waiting a couple more years for responses, will always be what does it for me. that’s the only time it feels real. that i have grown. you guys will always be my real friends. to this day, the internet friends i still have are my best friends, i’ve always struggled to connect with people in real life
here’s a little update on me…
as i said a few years back, i’m biologically a girl *gasp* but i mean, lol, gender is a funny thing. i would not be even slightly upset if you perceived me still as a boy. i wish it was like animal jam and we could just switch our little avatars everyday. heh. in two weeks, i will turn 18, and as you know, i just graduated highschool. i’m going to take a year off before i go to post-secondary. i’m gonna go to some sort of art school, perhaps in toronto, if you know where that is :)
i’d really like to be an artist.. i don’t know what exactly it will all look like just yet. but for the past year i’ve been running a small business selling my artwork. i would love to tell you guys, but for the sake of google and my dream of ~BECOMING FAMOUS~ i’m not going to drop the name of the business here. i love this safe little part of the internet for me and i don’t want them to be traced together y’know? :p hehe. oh god everyone discovers my furry roleplays. i have a decent sized following across platforms, but i can’t wait to be recognized truly someday. it is what i’m living for. i paint/illustrate/digital mainly nature and animals… psychedelic scenes… lots of mushrooms and rabbits. :) maybe you’ve seen my stuff secretly on some part of the internet before :D
ah anyways, life stuff- dude, i’m so happy highschool is over. who would’ve thought anyone could possibly be bullied in the last two years of highschool? i actually pretty successfully was only tormented on the internet as a kid, never much irl, and then boom, i’m 16 and now i have people genuinely threatening me and i can’t bare attend school. though i met a very lovely boy and he got in all sorts of fights for me, ah my teenage wattpad story . *hehehe lol*
now with my full heart beaming with lots of love for all of you, i truly hope you are all doing well. i know how hard every thing can be. how genuinely horrific life is sometimes. i have known the most heavy excruciating emotional pain in the last years. and so, if you ever feel hopeless, lost, neglected, i can promise that, the little kid you roleplayed with in 2012 genuinely loves you. no matter where you are or where you go, you guys will always have a piece of my heart, every one of you. i hope the best for all of you and all i want is for you to be happy. please never give up! you made my childhood as special as it could’ve been, thank you so much for that
i’ll see you again sometime,
jake/cheetahs/jamie(thatsnotevenmyrealnameovipaulannbutthanksforremembering)/whoever
